Every day I keep on asking myself, "What did I accomplish today that will matter in the long run?". It seems like doing the same thing every day be it on work or school, feels like devaluing your own passion and career not unless you know its a stepping stone towards achievement. Its Christmas and its the time of the year where I check my status at a bigger picture. I can't help but ask myself: "What's the most significant thing I've done for this year?", "Did I spent 80% of my time improving myself?" and "Did I dreamed big enough from the previous one?".
At work, I don't want to get left behind wherein I'm limited to whatever my job title has given me. Generally, as a software engineer, I'm tasked to create modules with specific programming languages used by the company. As for my own goal, I want to get myself better by coding programming languages not used in my full-time work. I also surround myself with like-minded and people better than me to keep pace growing. Since I became a dedicated programmer, I stopped playing console games and start focusing on my career as a visionary. As part of that, I and my friend are building something big that would eventually change the world. I want to get better every day and as every minute counts, wasting a single second feels like a lot of time has passed. During free times, I code projects, read a book, brainstorm solutions, or watch documentaries/TED videos. While riding a bus, I listen to audiobooks or continue off reading a book/watch a documentary/TED video. Even at meal times I read headlines to stay up-to-date with current events. Whenever I'm out, I want to be with like-minded people discussing the things we've just learned and evaluated our thoughts. I know that may sound stressful but it doesn't feel like it when you're aggressive towards your goals. If you lean towards positive thinking, nothing is stressful. You know what they say, never stop learning.
My friends invite me to go out, travel, eat, drink, play, chill, or whatever leisure they may think. I bet I said no to 90% of it as I don't want to risk temporary enjoyment for the sake of future success. If I stop learning, I'm losing the competition. There's always this feeling that I keep on thinking about it again if I made a wrong decision but I never seem to feel any regrets. Even in gatherings/reunions, my introversion becomes very dominant, so dominant that I'm looking for like-minded people to talk about something. In any case, a next event would occur, I don't want to be left behind. Whenever I go to conferences, getting surrounded by skilled behemoths feels like I need to grow further and reach their level. Come to think of it, the majority of these people work at startups and due to that, I swore not to return to a corporate setup as policies in a startup are freer and I get to enjoy work more having the freedom of trying out new things. I can give tons of reasons why you should work for a startup but who knows? Things might change in the future. All of these require taking risks and I'm always ready for a new challenge. Playing safe is the reason why we get stuck to the four corners of the wall. We can't play safe forever you know. Eventually, there will be a time in your life that you'll take a risk for a life-changing situation so its best to get up with your feet and start moving.
I'm still at a young age in between 20 - 24 (I won't disclose my real age) and comparing myself with successful people (such as Zuckerburg and Gates), they already made an impact on their teenage years yet, I'm already living in 2 decades and I haven't marked a changed in this world. Things that I do every day seems too little but it gains steps closer towards achieving success. I may not accomplish something big today but I know I'm getting there.
At the end of the day, that makes you valuable is what you do outside of work. Apparently, things that you do beyond your call of duty.
Honestly, I never feel satisfied with what I do. I always crave more and I just don't know when to give up.
The story is inspired by this article, only in my case it was contrary: https://medium.com/life-tips/you-re-only-23-stop-rushing-life-d6ce19ee673c#.lj74iot7g